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Name: Benji
Country: Bhutan
Birthday: 9/27/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: I love to Dance and shake my ghetto booty, read, write, listen to music, and help people with their problems....but they usually end up helping me with mine.
Expertise: I sell tickets to see my "Godly like Nipples"
Occupation: Sales
Industry: Entertainment
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
3/19/2003
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| i am honestly just sick of everything. i wish i could ignore everything. im gonna try to quit the sad depressing xanga and lj. no more meaningful away messages. no more attempts im done. this is ben signing off from xanga. maybe ill talk to you in another few months or so. | | |
| my parents just oked me going to NYC with jim and his dad for part of feb vacatoin. it should be fun. last year was a blast. i really enjoy hanging out with jim and friends that i can be natual around 100% of the time. its like time has no affect cause when you are with certain people things fall into place and its great. not worrying about how to act or what to do or say. just be free. i have a few friends like that........maybe 4ish MAYBE 5. i dunno but not all that many. three mainly though. u know who ya are. ok im done ttyl
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| jim told me to update so i shall. hey jim. heres the deal i said it in my LJ but im gonna say it again.
friends always fight. everyone wants some attention. at some point the friends fight with eachother and over eachother. people dont see enough of eachother life is a bitch that way. well recently there have been a lot of these kinds of fights. and im always the fighter. i am the one who wants to see people and hang out with people and be friends.....and im not just stating the obvious ex-relationship.....im talking about all kinds of relationships. not just boyfriend girlfriend. not just friends. but all. so yes im life i am a fighter. maybe its because im greedy i dunno. lets continue. so here i post a question to the world. why not me. someone fight for me. over me. its sooo cheesy and maybe selfish id ont know what is or isnt selfish anymore. is it that hard. how many of u......and i mean a certain group. have been like jeez i wanna see ben. i dont spend enough time with him. he certainly does do a lot for al his friends why not acknowledge it. ok so that was a tiny bit embellished. i could die tomorrow and u would of missed out.
american idol is on tonight. i was excited and now im not so much
i took up reading xanga again. your all entertaining people.
random quote from earlier in the week that has stuck with me
JRO: i was gonna say that but i thought someone would chastize me. ME: shut up! I'll chastize all over your face.
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| umm yeah i really dont know what to say. i dont know how to say it. i dont wanna be pathetic. but sometimes its the only way. i really like LJ better than xanga. i hate u xanga! you are sassier than a menstrating prostitute on rickly lake! singing is fun i wish i was better at it.
i really have nothing to say ot any of you. sorry i suck at updating on this. read LJ and u will see a good time | | |
| hey.
centeral districts were today, i enjoyed it a lot. Jims mom took me on a date. it was fun. saw min sarah and her. it was akward. i almost couldnt pay attention to the show. i wasnt mad. i wasnt upset. its just things will never be the same and i already miss her and it. it sucks cause right now cause its a majority of what i think about and i shouldnt. (get over yourself ben is done) anyways now that, that awkwardness is out of the way.
i saw greg.........dies. hahaaha. jim said he told him about me and my frekay obsession since godspell. im just fulll of awkwardness. im gonna comment on his xanga.
nothing to do tonight.
parents bought me a blow tourch for creme brulee. mmmmmm so god. i love them hahaa. the culinary club will appreciate this.
i need to go scream and yell and be emo or something.
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